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I think I could sense whenever the ‘baby’ was nearby. I felt so much connected with the giant baby. I hear the lullaby now every time. In my head. Whenever the tune plays, I get confused. Confused if I’m hearing it in real or in my head. Many a times I ran towards the deck to double check if it really played in my head. Sometimes I’d see the tail, sometimes only plain blue nothingness. I even drew the picture of a wide blue ocean, having a tiny tail in the middle. While I felt cute with it, my friend came to me with yet another exciting news. We’re about to go for diving!
My body froze. I felt my heartbeat rise. It was as if my heart did the job of jumping up and down in joy. I shook myself and grinned. Gave him a warm hug and asked how long I would have to wait. The woman who did not want to come out of a room, is about to dive into a world to which she would like to belong.
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Everything’s been set up. The suit. Oxygen. The first aid. The accessories. The boat. Experts to guide. I only had to jump. The remainder shall come to you, says my friend. From the deck, I was afraid of the blue water. It should frighten me now, when I’m just a jump from the boat. But I felt such a connection. The blue ripples were so peaceful. Lullaby played in my head. I was sure if I jumped not taking a moment to breathe, I would just fulfill my death wish. I never intended to die back then anyway. I wanted to explore. I wanted some memories. I was looking for something to fill in the gaps in my mind. I wanted to…. You know what I wanted more than the whole thing.
All my friends have dived before I have. I was only able to see them swim down to a depth. Then they disappeared, I guess. I took one big breath. Asked the lullaby to quit playing in my head. It went silent. I could only feel the breeze in my ears. The aquatic smell made me smile. The rhythm of water hitting the bottom of the boat. It was my queue to vanish deep into the blues. I looked into the water and smiled. Next thing I know, I’m underneath the surface.
What did I do next?
TBC…